Yes world, I am someone's mistress...the short, short version is that I met a man that I care about very much many, many years ago and it turns out he has some very serious problems, including drug and alcohol abuse, he's a cheater, a liar, a thief and at this point, an overall scumbag. He also married a very unattractive young girl when he was at his absolute lowest point because she manipulated him, pressured him and forced him into marrying her. Mind you, after about 4 months of the two of them knowing each other, while he was carrying on with me.
Our relationship was always rocky, given the obvious above. When it all finally came out, he told me he was terrified of losing me and was trying to "protect" me from the person he really was. Whether I truly believe that now is a mystery to me.
So of course, the logical question is, why are you still in his life? The truth is, I know deep down, there is good in him and I want to help. However, the further and further I go down this path, I am learning more ugly, deceitful things about him every day.
And what I'm wrestling with now, is whether or not I can stay in his life. He doesn't have many friends and I'm trying to be one to him. I'm trying to remove myself from the situation so I can heal, yet, be a friend to him because I know how desperately he needs them.
How can I care about someone who hurt me so dearly, has completely destroyed all of my trust and is still lying to me?
Help me world. I need to be yanked out of this mess.
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