Strong Enough

You just don’t understand how all of this makes me feel.  I’m trying to be strong and I’m trying to let you do what you have to do right now.  I’m trying to humble myself and take a back seat and be a good person in all of this.

And then to have to see pictures of your pregnant wife?  Do you know what that feels like?  I didn’t ASK for any of this.

Do you know how hard that is?  And to realize the truth behind the entire f*cked up situation?  Do you realize how low that makes me feel. 

I thought we were on the right path.  I thought we were really working through this and moving forward and I was so confident that we were going to turn out okay.

And now it seems like you never really had any intention of ever keeping your promises or figuring any of this out with me. 

It’s a blow that I’m not sure I’m capable of handling.  I don’t know if I’m strong enough anymore.