What's Changing

What’s changed is that I finally opened my eyes and realized how insignificant I truly am to you.

If you ever really cared about me, you would have been completely honest about who I am in your life and we would have stopped a year ago and really sat down and taken the time to figure all of this out.  But because I’m always the last to know and get sh*t on time and time again by you, you making the time to really do what we need to do was never an option.

People who genuinely care about another person don’t do this.  I forgave you and gave you a second chance because you were so mixed up and in such a bad place and because I thought that deep down you were a good guy who honestly cared about me and wanted me to be a real part of your life. 

And when I found out about this child, 7 months after the fact, I made every effort I could to put it in the past and made up my mind that it was your child that was important.  Supporting you and being here for you and your child…that’s what I wanted to do.  That’s what I was trying to do.  I was trying to be a good person and a good friend and all I ever asked for was a chance to figure out you and I.

But that’s dead now.