All In?

But what is all in?

For me, all in is saying, I'm going to be here for him, because I care about him.  I'm going to do my best to push the hurt and the past aside and I'm going to be here.  I'm going to make myself available for friendship and I'm going to open myself up to seeing what happens.  I'm going to spend time with him, talk to him and get to know him.  I'm going to keep my word, keep my promises and be a good person to him.

I didn't ask you to meet my parents this weekend.  I didn't ask you to move to here and get married tomorrow. 

I asked you to keep your word.  Keep your promises.  I asked you to initiate conversations and show me you care every now and then.  I asked you to be opened minded and to chill out and to be the Steve I know and love again. 

I'm not and have never asked you for much. 

I came to you and told you that I feel like I don't matter because of X, Y and Z.  And instead of listening to me and talking to me, you got angry with me.  And you know that if you came to me and said what I'm saying to you right now, I'd be doing whatever I can to make sure you don't feel that way.  But instead, you put me down and make me feel like dirt. 

I'm not asking you to change the way you feel tomorrow.  I'm asking you to be open minded and to chill out and to just let this happen.