Decisions

And again, I have to keep reminding myself that he didn't DO this to ME.  At least not on purpose.

He was in a very dark place.  He hit rock bottom.  And the decisions he made at rock bottom were bad ones.

But now, as he's coming out of all of this and getting his life back on track, WHY is he still making decisions that are hurting me and directly affecting my life.

I'm trying to date.  I'm trying to meet new people.  I'm trying to be a single woman.  But my heart isn't there.  My heart belongs to him and I don't know how to take it back.

I don't want to take it back.  I just want to be normal.  And I want him in my life.