I'm ready to jump. Dive in head first and go. I don't want to hold back anymore. I'm sick of holding back my feelings and pushing things aside because he's not quite ready to face them.
We live in two separate states. Being apart makes things very difficult because in a normal situation, we can sit down and talk to each other and communicate like normal adults. He also travels, pretty much every week, for work...which makes this challenge even larger.
Our communication consists of emails, instant message, video chats and when he has "time", face to face.
That right now, for me, is the biggest problem. I'm asking, begging him, to make time. I know that the only way this will begin to change and the only way this will get better is if we make the time to spend together and to truly work on things.
He says that I ask too much of him right now. That he needs to be selfish and concentrate on him and that time isn't something he has.
And if time is what I need, how can there be a resolution?
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