The Visit

So while Mr. Big was at my house, things were, interesting.

While he was on his way here from the airport, he was sending me messages suggesting things he'd like me to be wearing, or not wearing.  The innuendo's were flying and he seemed like his old self.

At one point, before he walked through my door, I asked if he was giving me suggestions or simply trying to be funny and he swore up and down that they weren't suggestions, b/c after all, he is "married".  But I would bet a lot of money that if I had gone through with any of the things he said, he wouldn't have been upset.

So again, my one any only question is WHY stay in a ridiculous fucking marriage that is BAD and TOXIC?  What is he doing?  And WHAT am I doing?

Clearly, he doesn't want to be married and doesn't care about his marriage.