What is cheating?

But how can it be worth it to stay with someone you aren't in love with and don't care about?

I know I said this before, but regardless of whether or not he and I are sleeping together, he's still cheating.

I think most women would agree that an emotional relationship is just as much cheating and probably a worse form of cheating than a physical relationship is.

Do men not understand that?

The amount of time and effort and the emotions that he puts into communicating with me on a daily basis is a lot.  And while I admit, I don't give him that much credit for it, we're very involved in each other's lives, from a distance.

And I can't stand it anymore.  If I push him, he gets angry because he's not ready, but what he doesn't understand is that he is on the verge of losing me because I have no desire to be this person anymore.  I can't stand being on the outside.  And while he swears that I'm not, the fact that he is still doing what he's doing shows me that I am nothing more than an outsider.